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Showing posts with label growing up. Show all posts
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Friday, January 14, 2011

Hi Mom and Dad...

I have been avoiding "Day 3" of my "30 Days straight of randomocity" as I'm not really sure what to write about "my parents". I don't even understand my parents to this day. All I know is that I love them and they have grown a pretty amazing young lady if I do say so myself ;) haha <---just messing...kind of.

If you would have asked me on the day of my high school graduation I would have said that my mom is my best friend - hands down. I would also say that I love my dad but we just never "clicked" in the way I have seen other father/daughter duos "click". I think I felt he was always fairly hard on me and he didn't seem to understand me very well.

Today - things have changed slightly. I love both of them, but they have gone through craziness since I have left the house and seem to have become completely different people. Sometime when I was at college - they moved away from southwest Kansas where we had lived in that same house for about 17 years I believe. They are now residents of a small town in the panhandle of Texas. They went through a major life crisis and came out of it stronger people and much closer in their relationship than I've ever seen them. I am happy for them.

In the meantime, I got caught in the middle of their crisis somehow and my relationship with my mom seemed to have lost it's closeness. I still feel close to her - but not like I used to when I was younger. She is more of my mom than my best friend now. I don't know if she feels the same way - but it isn't necessarily a bad thing. It is just different. My relationship with my dad isn't that changed - even though he is significantly changed and he seems more open to seeing me as a person these days. It is just too late now that I am all grown up and moved away.

All in all - I am lucky for the mother and father life gave to me. They raised someone who made goals for herself fairly young and has almost achieved those initial goals in her mid-20's. I feel very stable and very fortunate in my life. I can't imagine how much harder it would have been to get where I am today without their support and love and faith in my abilities.

Whew. I'm done with this one. Hopefully I can get into lighter - more fun topics from now on! Thanks for sticking with me :)